Tuesday, June 7, 2011

"Sometimes I hear them laughing late, beer cans and cats and the trees talking to themselves. He lets her ride his bike around the block, or they take walks together. I watch them. She holds his hand, and he stops sometimes to tie her shoes. But Emma says those kinds of girls, those girls are the ones that go into alleys. She, who can't tie her shoes. Where does he take her?
Everything is holding its breath inside of me. Everything is waiting to explode like Christmas. I want to be all new and shiny. I want to sit out at night, a boy around my neck and the wind under my skirt. Not this way, every evening talking to the trees, leaning out my window, imagining what I can't see.
A boy held me once so hard, I swear, I felt the grip and weight of his arms. But it was a dream."

--House on Mango Street


  1. Oh, darling.
    I know how you're feeling. I'm that girl that watches others with envy in her eyes. The one that daydreams of finding love one day. The one that wants some boy to hold her so tight she can hardly breathe.

    I'm so sorry you have to feel this way, too. It's not a good feeling. But I know you'll find love one day. And he'll treat you the way you were meant to be treated. And he will love everything about you. You just need to have a little faith. Even when it seems impossible. I know it's hard.

    But I love you, and I'm here for you.

  2. i'm the girl who can't tie her shoes.

    valmai, love, this makes me cry. please take care always.

  3. oh darling, we're here for you.
    I hate that you're feeling like this and hope that you'll be feeling so much better soon!
    Love Anafly

  4. Always here. <3 You are lovely and I hope you are well.
    Someday soon, someone will be looking at you while he bends to tie your shoe.

  5. my goodness. this is so beautiful. wow. thank you. xxx

  6. Dear, this is so incredible.This hurts to read, but is so beautiful I can't stop. You're amazing. x x
    Thank you for your kind comment, you make me smile

  7. I want to cry and cry and cry.
    I love you too much, this is too much; I don't want such sadness for you.

  8. You're too amazing for this corrupted world..



  9. this is inexplicably beautiful and heartbreaking. this world disappoints and confuses and amazes me too, always, always.

  10. Your lovely words made me nearly cry, thank you so much. It means so much that you read and enjoyed it!
    I hope you're well, dear xx

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  12. Thank you, I was hopping to on my next post by her.