Sunday, January 16, 2011

Oh dear, look at this.

The honest scrap award. Given to me by two beautiful people: Bella, and Sweet Pea. I surely do not deserve such a compliment.
I suppose I should write ten honest things about myself, or so I have been told. And pass this award onto five other people. How will I ever do this...?

1) I am abnormally brilliant at getting rid of important people in my life. I'm never sure why I do this. Perhaps the closeness and fear of losing them without my control is much too great, or maybe because I take what I can from them and move on...
2) I am very musical. I compete in singing (though I hate it) and play the guitar and piano.
3) Red lipstick is my prefered daily attire. It goes with anything.
4) I have an unhealthy obsession with Marilyn Monroe.
5) Winter is my favorite season. It carries such a romantic feeling. When you feel the bone structure of the landscape- the loneliness of it, the dead feeling of winter. Such saddness. Such unbearable warmth when everything else is frozen...
6) I am my own worst enemy.
7) My full name is Lauren Valmai Harper.
8) Iron & Wine is my refuge. The slow acoustic sound of it is so soothing. I find myself playing him over and over again. On repeat. My mind spinning with his voice, his lyrics. He is just so wonderful.
9) Pizza is my downfall.
10) I am in love. So in love. Shaun... He is all I have. All I need. My tired heart, is wrapped in his beautiful warmth. His saddness and mystery. I follow his thoughts and heart as though they tell my journey; perhaps my destination. A roadmap to where I need to go, and how to get there. Trapped inside a world of music and poetry and love. A world I may never escape from. And I realize now, after all this time, without him, I would be totally lost.
I pass this on too....
Fragments of me: Oh, sweet Bella. I know you have recieved this award multiple times, but it will never be enough. You are my inspiration and heart and feeling, everything I could need. My best friend, so many miles away. Your words, I feel and understand. Such beauty, such sadness. How lost I would be without you.
Ashley Mortimer: My dear, you are such a sweetheart. I miss you. I miss reading your words and heartache. I miss talking to you. You have saved me sometimes. I love you.
The Girl Behind the Eyes: You are lovely. I feel your writing, whether a reflection of your day, or your true feelings, you never cease to amaze me.
Michael's Blog: You never update much. But your words are so deep and wonderful. I feel closer to you, to the real you everytime I read. I wish you were able to write more often. Until then...I wait patiently.
These Scars Will Stay Forever: Autumn, you are so beautiful inside and out. I am grateful for you, for your feeling and aching and truthfullness. And though you never update, I know what you say is true. You are so wonderful and special to me, I l0ve you.


  1. Reading this, is like seeing you; piece by piece. I love that you let us. I love, you.
    Do take care. You're just so special.

  2. Clearly, you are insane for thinking so highly of me. But this post did make my entire day, as you always seem to do. Oh Lauren, you are so beautiful. Please, please believe it. You have saved my soul from despair countless times, and I owe you everything I have. You are one of the best friends I've ever had, and I miss being your best friend. Your words make me so sad, but yet bring me such happiness at the same time. I love you to the moon and back. Never, ever forget that.
    You are so wonderful.