You're not dead, but you're not alive either. Caught in between two worlds. Floating aimlessly between your days. Nothing is real anymore. Maybe nothing ever was.
I don't know if you've ever felt that way. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning. If this gets any worse I might have to go back to the doctor again.
http://directedatyou.blogspot.com/2012/01/sleep-for-year-or-two-or-two-thousand.html
ReplyDeleteI've felt this before. I've known this feeling before. And it's never easy to stand up alone. Hold on, Valmai, even to the littlest hope.
ReplyDeletelove u.
Darling I'm thinking about you; and wishing you so much happiness.
ReplyDeleteI feel like this a lot; I've known it all too well.
But you can get through this, I know it.
You're far stronger than I ever was; you'll get through this some day, hopefully soon.
You are beautiful.
x
thank you for your sweet comment. you are always welcome to come read. and find proof. i am so glad it was proof for you. lets me know that i am doing my job here (:
ReplyDeleteyou don't have to count time by lines. try counting by breaths, it might be slightly easier. you are just as wonderful.
remember that (:
I wish you so much, keep safe. Only when you can.
ReplyDeleteI'd be a hypocrite to say keep going, but try anyway.
Love xxx